I’m feeling just a tad left out today. That’s the best way I can describe it, perhaps its just this cloudy day.
Crazy monster was speaking very well for me. I feel so out of sorts I don’t even have questions, let alone answers. I love my new job, but its taking away from the ones I’m more passionate about. Gotta pay the bills though. I feel like everyone else has it all figured out: career, love, family, whatever. And I’m just a step behind. I can only imagine what I’d be like internally if I hadn’t grown into the woman I am today. The 18 yr old KG would not handle this at all. Growing up sucks but at least growing into myself has been well worthwhile.
I know I’m not the only one. I know not everyone is perfect, just unique. I just wish I could catch up. Every time I feel like I’m making progress to where I want to be, a day like this smacks me in the face.
I just have this sinking feeling I’m never going to be over it.